Gina ends her stay at the meditation center. I look forward to when she comes back.

A group of us walk to Madre Tierra for the Monday specials including Pat and Trina.

Alison is her vibrant self and I order the new smoothie containing lots of ginger. It’s a real feast of dehydrated crackers, guacamole, cookies, chocolate treats and soup.

I see a rainbow wall as we walk back home. Many rainbow variations during this afternoon.

Rainbow Wall

Heart in the Road

Two new guests named Nasar and Matt check into the meditation center. Pat and I join them for supper at Gingkos.

In dream one I am working in a tall office building and one of the managers says that he wants to be undisturbed for three months. He heads off to his office while I inform some of the staff about his request. I look over towards the managers office and see him standing naked on the window still. A second goes by and he jumps.

In dream two I am swimming across what feels like the ocean. The water is very tangible. Thick and something I can grap and pull myself forward through. I reach the tip of a peninsula which is my goal.

In dream three I have a half of a very large avocado with the pit removed. I am working with others to shape the indent part into a heart shape. This will be placed over someone’s chest who is terminally ill to cure them. When we complete it we take it over to a medical doctor apparently in charge of the terminal patient. She looks at the heart shaped avocado and I sense she would normally dismiss it but because her patient is far gone she applies it to the patient. The patient is cured.

I wake up with a very strong affirmation that it is very important for me to live from a place where I am the change I love to see in the world.

Trina and I walk the Vilcabamba loop. The fireflies put on their magical display. I love our conversation during the walk and over a cup of tea afterward.

I join Mindy, Linda and Gina for breakfast. Mindy shares her journey to the poorest part of India that had a significant affect on her. Gina also shares her experiences related to when she was younger.

AsI cross the square to get to the Juice Factory I notice a wedding taking place inside the church. I hear “Here Comes The Bride” and a moment later the bride and groom emerge.

Bride & Groom

Pat and I enjoy dinner up at Madre Tierra.

People have gathered for the sweat lodge. There will be two tonight. About 20 people enter the first sweat lodge. I get a chance to say hello to Jerri. I love Jerri’s energy.

Almost Like The Sky is On Fire

Into town I go. There is a performance going on. I connect with Trina. I buy a yummy piece of corn tortilla and some roasted corn. Trina and I watch some traditional dance and a more modern dance performance.

The feature band starts setting and put on some wonderful music to dance to, Trina invites me to dance. We start dancing and Mowoofoo joins us. We start really getting into to it. It feels like we’re the entertainment as the whole crowd watches us. Some people are taking pictures and video recording us. I’m enjoying myself. I love Trina’s energy.

Only one Americano this morning.

A perfect rainbow over the valley which became a double rainbow as the sun set.

Watching a portion of Felix’s performance of the prophet at Roots.

I emerge from my room at 9 am after handling a support call. As I am walking toward the kitchen to get an Americano, Anna appears carrying a bag of stuff she is leaving with me while she travels to Columbia. Doug, Anna and I sit together for breakfast and then we say our goodbye’s.

I open the door to my room after returning from the Juice Factory to hear a Skype call coming in. It’s Celeste. We catch up on what is going on in our lives.

Some more work related trouble shooting before taking a cat nap. It feels like a day where it would be easy to be pushed off center.

Mike and Tamara are up at Monte Suenos getting married. Ginna and many people are attending. I thought it was an invitation only event so the day before Pat, Thomas and I had made reservations at Cafe-cultura for today.

Pat, Thomas and I jump into Thomas’ truck and pick David up at the place he gets a massage. Next we go to Le Rendezvous to pick Marie who is here to write an English test tomorrow in Loja. We are seated at Cafe-cultura just as the sun is setting. Cafe-cultura is the original building owned by the family that use to own all of Vilcabamba plus much more land.

We are seated outside on the terrace being served by Ashley. Yasu the owner and chef comes out and greets us. The meal starts with a soup. Non-dairy cream of Carrot Tri-colored Soup then it’s Curried-pumpkin Souffle served with Mediterranean Salad & Grilled Zucchini in Grilled Asparagus Juice followed by Upside-down Pineapple Quinoa Cake Topped w/ Whipped Cream

Sunset

My Entree

Two Americanos without milk to start my day.

Anna pulls the Wolf card in the Medicine card deck and we read about the Hummingbird because there was one during a good part of her Yoga practice this morning.

Anna gives me a two hour Tibetan Healing Massage and it feels fantastic.

Mindy and I make a batch of chocolate with dates, dried red bananas, Jalapeño pepper and two kinds of chocolate. Yummy.

Pat makes a batch of chocolate with dates, dried red bananas, salt, fresh basil leaves and chocolate. Yummy also.

There is a new person in the kitchen operating an expresso machine. I am offered a cappuccino by Mindy and accept. Mindy is a volunteer that will be making coffee and helping out at the meditation center. Mindy also offers to help me make the next batch of chocolate.

The Juice Factory is packed with people as I find a spot to sit and enjoy my fruit bowl. I see Anna walking by and wish to connect with her.

I pick up some red bananas to eat and head back to the meditation center. There is Anna. We walk to the center together.

Anna and I go to Madre Tierra together. I introduce her to Gail so that she can see if there is a chance for her to work there as a volunteer. Anna meets Alison as well. It’s agreed that Anna can work at Madre Tierra when she returns from her trip to Columbia around June 11th. I love looking in Anna’s eyes and I love the hugs she gives. We tour the property before coming back to the center. She share with me that she hitchhiked all the way from Sweden to Brazil including coming across the ocean. I also discover that she does Tibetan Healing Massages. We agree for me to receive one tomorrow. I share some Sufi Bliss essential oil with her before she heads off to the river.

Pat, Halena, Marvin, Gina, Bernie and I go for a walk up past Rumi Wilco and return just before dark.

At Gingkos, Gabby informs me that Nuclear Reactor #4 is on fire and the cooling pool for the spent rods is dry. This will release Plutonium into the air and spread to many parts of the world. She asks me to let my Sarah know.

Pat, Thomas and I practice our new communications skills.

I am supporting Trina in preparing her yoga / contact dance workshop flyer.

Pat and I are enjoying the raw crepe, raw pizza, chocolate balls, smoothies and cabbage chips t Madre Tierra.

I get a picture of Alison’s intricate tattoo of a fox nestled in the roots of a tree.

Alison’s Tattoo

Pat and I walk back to the meditation center with JB and Dan.

I get some programming done.

I get an email from Debe saying she will be coming to Ecuador on June 11th.

Exploring Breatharian & Fruitarian concept in this book here.

Excerpt from the end of Hotema – Mans Higher Consciousness

Transcribed here:

He considered what the loss of the precious fluid of the genital glands did to eunuchs, castrated horses, hogs and other animals. He saw that the loss at the genitals and their fluid resulted in the emasculation of the animals. Whether man or beast, the results were always the same. He reasoned that decrepit men are to all intents “eunuchs”. They have dissipated their Life Essence, and the weakness and aging resulting have affected the whole body and brain. The genitals were no longer competent to elaborate the vital fluid the body and brain need, and the body sinks into decrepitude, The Endoctrine Glands are the Master Chemists of the organism. Upon their products depend the function of all the other glands. The Gonad Glands are the leaders and controllers of the Endocrine System. They are the Life Glands and they produce the most refined and most vital fluid in the organism. Loss of their substance in sexual debauchery diminishes brain power and decreases man’s conscious capacity. For that reason these glands are also called the “destructive glands.” In the act of production, man sacrifices in no small degree his own vital force and substance. Far worse than this is his shameful dissipation of Life Essence for pleasure only. The Ancient Masters correctly termed this substance the Life Essence. They knew of the damage the body suffers because of its loss. Physiological facts prove they were right. Hence, we find that Chastity is written in words of fire on all the pages of ancient scriptures.

Day 111 happens to fall on the new moon and solar eclipse. Ones are beginnings.

Today I begin my transformation into complete surrender and trust.

My Skype call with Kaya starts off with a few dropped calls until we decide to go voice only. Kaya is at the cottage with her daughter Molly. We catch up on what’s transpired in the last two weeks.

Thomas, Pat and I make an agreement to support each in using the new language skills Thomas and I discovered yesterday at Mark’s seminar.

On our walk I take a photo of the new footing for the repair of the crooked bridge over by Rumi Wilco.

I meet up with Ginna at Kingkos. It’s closed but Gabby, Ben, Felix and Leo join us for dinner at the Hidden Garden. 

I wake up several times during the night and I put myself to sleep by focusing on my breathing. Only a few minutes pass of wakefullness before sleep embraces me again.

I start walking to Madre Tierra at 9:20 am. I find myself slightly anxious because there are two different start times. The rain spits but holds off until I arrive. I meet Darren, one of the presenters and then Mark the other presenter.

Darren starts his presentation with his journey of reconnecting with the divine. He uses material he used before and new material. I love the way he uses clips from movies to illustrate his discovery. His premise is that the biggest lie is that we are separate from the divine and that the divine is outside of us.

His presentation takes us through the morning and into lunch. I feel like I’m in a strong emotional field that has me welling up with tears. 

Lunch is included with the seminar fee. A delicious soup followed by a large bowl of salad mix with warm quinoa based on Leisha’s recipe. Gail offers us pieces of chocolate cake made with beets’ Though I hold off, everyone who orders a piece is a fan. I share my table with Talbot’s mother Nancy and Jenise and Jenise’s husband who’s name escapes me right now.

The seminar resumes at 1 pm. Mark builds on Darrens talk by introducing us to the idea that our story both individually and collectively keeps us separated from the divine. He claims that we can change our story and we can do this through the use of language. I really resonate with his ideas and approach. 

Several people volunteer to let Mark take them through the process on stage. He uses tapping meridian points with two fingers on the body as pattern interrupters. We the audience tap along. Again I am transported into an emotional field as I witness the transformative power of language. The careful replacement of they, it and that with me and I so that we can change the story and let go of our victim feelings.

He goes on to reveal the cornerstones of his process he calls negation, projection and soft language. 

Negation is defined as “Speaking About What Wasn’t, What Isn’t, And What Won’t Be”.  This way of speaking keeps us in a state of conflict with what happened in our past.  Negation also keeps us out of alignment with how we want to be feeling … and what we want to be doing … in our present and future.

Projections Defined: A Projection is to blame someone else for what we have created for ourselves.  Its gets deeper than that … and … this is a good place to start with projections.

Soft Language = Verbal Litter

“Likes” … “I Guesses” … “Sort Of’s” … “Probably’s” … “Kind Of’s” … “Maybes” … (When Chronically Used) can weaken my energy and decicivness over the long run.  Of course there is a time and a place for me to use soft language. Having said that conscious use is best.

I also observe the power of the word “be – cause” and how the word can be used to propel the action I am taking. 

I love what is being demonstrated and I feel he could adopt some of my ideas into his protocols when my inner voice suggests that I will use these ideas in my own methods of loving and supporting others.

I come with my own statement “I LOVE GIVING and RECEIVING” which I further reduce into “I LOVE SHARING”. 

The seminar ends almost on schedule at 4:45 pm.

Since I’m already at Madre Tierra, I decide to enjoy a large salad for dinner.

Bernie passes me in his truck on the way home and I accept a ride home when he stops to ask.

My room has a double bed now because the queen bed has been moved to the room next door. I introduce myself to Marvin and Halena, my new neighbours sitting outside their room.

Day starts with a heartfelt talk with Thomas.

I see a several roosters along the street on my way to the garage sale.

How Many Roosters do you see?

I peruse the wares at the first garage sale here in Vilcabamba. Items belong to Jack and Julia.

Gina, Bernie’s friend arrives here at the meditation for her 10 day stay.

I pass by the stage being set up to honour one of the elders here in Vilcabamba.

4 pm walking the Vilcabamba loop with Pat and I work up a sweat.

Home made guacamole for dinner.

The square is full of people to crown Miss Vilcabamba along with fireworks.

The Square

Learning Spanish one word or phrase at a time. This is my opportunity to be in the NOW by learning only present tense words in Spanish.

First phrase -> I LOVE = me encanta.

I am eating an organic salad made with lettuce, kale, onion, basil, dill and tomato at Madre Tierra. Pat is here with me. Pat is sharing his chocolate creation with Alison, Erika and several of the staff at Madre Tierra.

I am using the dates from the Belgian chocolate shop, dried red bananas, grated whole brazil nuts, grated pure chocolate from Pineapple Head and chocolate paste to create a new chocolate experience.

I am sampling the new chocolate creation. Chewy yummy delightful decadence.

I am sharing the new creation with Ginna, Doug and a new person named Anna from Sweden.

All of us at the meditation center ate a bowl of fruit today for breakfast.

Worked from 8 am until 2 pm with a quick laundry run in between.

Gingkos is open again after Ben and Gabriella moved into their new home.

I immensely enjoyed a conversation with Mark England who was eating his lunch at Gingkos.

Get an idea of what Mark’s ideas are about by watching the videos below.

Part One

Part Two

He will be at Madre Tierra along with Darren this Saturday at 10 am to 4:30 pm. Buy a ticket here.

I went for a walk for about half the loop with Pat.

Ate a fruit bowl at a place called Natural Yogurt. It’ the first time I’ve eaten there. I like the fruit bowl at the Juice Factory more so I went there and had one as well.

Connected with Rob who supplies the Juice Factory with the chocolate and dried red banana pieces I’ve been creating my new batch of chocolate with.

Showed Pat how to make the chocolate. He diced up the banana’s while I chopped up the dates and melted the chocolate. This time I poured the mixture into a large plastic bowl because it will be easier to push it out when it sets. Trina came by and we all had a chance to chat while making chocolate.

Walked a portion of the loop with Pat.

It feels a little bit like spring and summer today.

Accomplished some work and walked up to Madre Tierra with Pat and Ginna. Thomas came up a few minutes later. It’s Monday smoothie day.

Alison made a a savoury smoothie for me. I munched on some basil and kale fresh from the garden while I waited. Ginna had spied someone eating a raw pizza and ordered it. I followed suite after tasting it. It’s Gail’s, one of the owners, creation. It had a dehydrated spinach crust topped with a pesto sauce and some fresh vegetables. It’ll be a once in a while treat because it’s $6.

Pat and I practiced one word of Spanish together. It’s Quiero which means I want. I was joking around with some of the women I met by adding usted which means you. Alison and Ginna suggested a less formal way by saying Te Quiero. Quiero is a power word.

I did the loop walk with Pat. We took a different route that takes us by Rumi Wilco. The crooked bridge is either being replaced or resurrected. There is a frame for a new footing in place and the road to access it has been widened.

Looking Towards the Crooked Bridge from the Widened Road

Pat and I made a very tasty batch of Guacamole for supper.

Finished watching the Vivien Leigh movie before bed.

I’ve been commissioned by both Pat and Ginna to make them each a batch of my new chocolate.

It was also another day of my new pattern of eating.

I dreamt I was in an elevator with this woman and she suggested we hug and lift each other higher. It felt wonderful as the elevator seemed to rise with our love for each other.

I went for a walk around the Vilcabamba loop and decided to go into the park / zoo out by the river and about halfway around the loop. There are only birds and 1 monkey in the Zoo. A turkey vulture posed by stretching out its wings. Admission is 50 cents. There is a also a waterslide / pool, food stand and barbecue pits.

Turkey Vulture – Front

Turkey Vulture – Back

Waterslide in Vilcabamba Park

Enjoying the energy I feel by only eating fruits and vegetables and eating less food.

Ate a salad at Izhcayluma with Pat and Thomas. There has been some major roadwork below the property which may be causing the whole building to shift and the floor to crack. Another source says there a few houses affected all through Vilcabamba related to winter weather conditions.

Crack in the floor at Izhcayluma

Sat with Ginna at the Hidden Garden while she had dinner.

Woke up through the night to the sound of a dog barking. I could hear another in the distance. Were they having a conversation? Then someone started playing music. My thoughts struggled with the contrast between my wish to continue my sleep and what I was starting to hold responsible for my inability to do so. I started to accept what was taking place. As I did the dog stopped barking and the music went off.

I woke feeling tired.

I received a wonderful email from my Sarah.

Ginna asked to share some time together. During the interval before she came over I enjoyed a conversation with Alison and Leisha at the Juice Factory.

I enjoyed a walk around the Vilcabamba loop.

I also enjoyed a conversation with William who has a piece of property in Yamburara.